After my comments on freedom and how I am enjoying it and fighting off the fear voices (niggles – do I have enough? doubts – what happens if? ..etc..)
I have received yet another call from a recruitment agent about work…this one is a curve ball as the job is right on the doorstep, within a 5 mile radius. Wow…it ticks boxes on what I would like to do in a job if I went back to my past career. The proximity is a lure – am I tempted?
I am….quite tempted to have an interview and see what they and the place is like. They may not like me. It is likely to be full-on and although the agent say its office hours, I bet it will involve out-of-hours working due to the nature of the role. If you are working with people in different time zones then you will be working them too, checking emails at 6 am and late evening, etc. I did enjoy the crack of that type of work but it was pressured – can I cope in that deadline driven environment any more?
At the end of my last job, I was getting headaches and finding it a struggle to get into the office. It wasn’t as though I was under any work pressure, it was all in my head. The heaviness of the atmosphere there was so painful I couldn’t wait to get out of the door. It just didn’t fit, I felt the walls were closing in on me and I wanted to get out. Could this be similar? – Is it all sugar-coated and when you bite in you find a horrid taste?
Now reading a lot of the FI blogs including MMM, they all actually continue to work. Its just that they either do it via self-employment or on short-term contracts. enabling them to work to their schedule not The Man’s. They are not completely out of the rat race, they are just on another track, one that enables them to dictate their time and give them the autonomy that those working for The Man do not have.
Perhaps I need to go and find out if my fear voices are correct – do I need to work my old career again – or does this spur me to pursue a different path…time will tell.